19 days ago
The mental weight of caring for a child with a disability
Vulnerability. Hope. I had a full breakdown. Sharing the load… If you feel like the world is too heavy sometimes, you’re not alone. I should’ve shared with my tribe in the thick of it, I know I could’ve reached out and you’d be there for me but I think I simply didn’t want to admit I was back there. At the bottom of a dark deep well. My husband came with me to the psychiatrist for immediate medical support, I booked into a new psychologist. And went on retreat. It wasn’t the relaxing kind. It was caring and intense and so very helpful. 4 days of psychological workshopping, meditation, having blankets pulled up over you, heat packs made, nutritious healthy food made and presented to you. No need to keep a watch or phone on you, switch off. Carers NSW gave me this retreat over a year ago and with covid it kept getting pushed back so it was there waiting and I decided to jump in (actually my family nudged me strongly in). I’m getting better but still a long way to go. I have leant I need to book in time away to avoid the exhaustion. There were participants from all walks of life and reasons for attending. I realise the human condition is what it is. I’m not sure if I can offer support but I can offer understanding if anyone else feels the mental load, the weight.. Any idea’s anyone has for recovering from burnout and coming back from a breakdown I’d love to hear what has worked/hekped? I’m scared about rejoining the world and just going back the old patterns.